Archive for December 5, 2009
If you are like me, you too are almost good enough. You have a dream. You have goals. And right now, you are not making real progress. You are surviving.
If you are like me, they told you that you could be anything you set your mind towards… and then never lifted a finger to help you find your calling; only two shoulders and raised palms from shrugging off the question nobody can answer for you.
If you are like me, you have squandered opportunities some would kill for. Not necessarily through carelessness, although that played a part. But because you didn’t know any right way to succeed… or where to turn for answers.
If you are like me, you’ve found an entry-level position with a soul-crushing company. Perhaps it’s not even your first. But you aren’t worried about finding anything better… not really. Not anymore.
If you are like me… you have lost that spark of hope. That belief that life can be better. It’s not because the news is horrible, though that is a piece of it. It isn’t even that you don’t make a difference in the world… because you do, in small ways, in personal ways… although it’s not enough.
I lost that spark of hope in four pieces. I failed college. I lost a job. I couldn’t learn to write a novel in two years time. I was passed over for promotion at a temp job so someone less competent, but younger, could turn to me for questions about the job I should have.
You may have lost it in other ways. But you are like me in more ways than you would like.
Someday… we will do something about it.
For today, we survive.
In your mind you feel cold,
in your eyes you see frost.
In your mind you feel hot,
in your eyes you see waving air.
In your mind you feel the evil in the world,
in your eyes you see the blade penetrate your heart.
In your mind you feel love,
in your eyes you see love enveloping the world.
Which do you want?
Which do you choose?
Which do you see?